WyzWmn's World©

lost
drifting
unfocused

sounds travel around me
nothing affects my soul

hard to catch my breath
even my necklace feels too heavy
on my chest

what’s this all about?

blue sky
no sadness
kinda numb
can’t concentrate
can’t rest
can’t think
can’t brain

no zen
that’s for sure

was it but a month ago
I felt grounded
sound
happy?

but wait!
wasn’t it just last week?
wasn’t I happy last week??

I wait
with baited breath
for the other shoe
to fall

I wait
with anticipation
and dread

I wait
for the muck
to clear

for what?

did ya ever wonder
what it is
that made you
the way you are?

how did I end up such a romantic?
how did I end up a crier?
how did I end up with a firm resolve towards kindness
in spite of the life I’ve lived,
the people I’ve encountered?

how’d this happen to me
when it didn’t to so many others?

what’s the difference?
what causes it?

what makes me want to believe in the good
when so many don’t, can’t, won’t?

what makes me trust
until proven I shouldn’t
as opposed to starting out
from a negative standpoint?

what is it that makes me believe
that love and kindness
will eventually win over
even the most
jaded
cruel
people I encounter.

I must be a glutton for punishment…

nevertheless
I’m still gonna be
a romantic
that weeps
when affected by
the beauty
or the anguish
of life

all the hate,
anger,
meanness,
cruelty,
and judgement
I encounter
may make me stumble

and still
I will try
to follow
this path
I find myself on…