sometimes I need to be reminded
how I came to this place
with these people
sometimes
when I get lonely
or when I feel a need
to relate to people
I used to be friends with
I have to read this
to remind myself
ain’t no-one looking after me
but me
and Louie. – thanks Louie once again.
I remember the day you told me about this *friend*.
I remember your tears and your shock.
I remember you asking me to take the high road.
I remember on your insistance on giving her the benefit of the doubt.
I remember what happened in the days that followed.
I remember her subsequent lies and backtracking.
I remember your so called friends TELLING you to forgive her.(easily said when nothing was done to them)
I remember her isolating some friends and treating you like shit.
I remember how it all got turned around and you were blamed for this thing that she did to you and your family.
I remember the phone calls and e-mails and hugs we shared over this,
I remember you going camping with all these friends to try to heal the schism.
I remember you blaming yourself.
I remember her blog about all of us.
I remember that’s when I dropped her over your protests.
I remember said friends gradually cutting you out of their lives in favor of her.
I remember your hurt over this and your insistance that nobody e-mail her to tell her off because she really didn’t mean any harm.
I remember respecting your wishes and getting on with things.
I remember when you were finally able to let it go.
I remember the last couple years being gobsmacked by your strength of character and your ability to move on.
I remember your phone call the other night.
I remember Karen, I’ll never forget.
You are loved.
You are strong.
You are decent.
You are good and I’ll smack the first person I see in the head who says otherwise.
Rachael Lee was damn lucky you had the strength and the courage to give her a life with a family who loved and cared for her. Nobody can take away from you what a loving and sacrificial act that was.
Maybe she didn’t mean it, maybe she was sorry, it’s the events after the fact that are so stunning. That was intentional and no one can convince me otherwise.
LYLT5$