I’m afraid…
and I don’t mind admitting it
2 weeks ago
my father went to the dr
to see about a persistent cough
he had an xray
that turned into a CT scan
that turned into a broncoscopy
he has lung cancer
this is the healthy one
the guy that still rides his bike
all over creation
at 80
the guy who chops wood
and hauls furniture
and reads about Jesus
ad infinitum
the guy who spent many
many years of his life
working in palliative care
assisting others
through the process of coming to then end…
now we wait
for the results of his biopsy
with hope against hope
that it is not inoperable
that this isn’t
the beginning of a nasty end
the realist in me
knows it’s going to happen someday…
that doesn’t mean
I have to like it
or that I’m not horribly afraid that it’s going to happen now.
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