Weary…

I’m a pretty open person
I wear my heart on my sleeve
I try always to do my best
I strive to be kind
I try more often than not to be nice

I don’t succeed all the time
but I sure do try

being this type of a person
constantly puts me in the position
to be taken advantage of
or to be used
or to be hurt
by mean spirited
self absorbed
conniving
people

I know I’m not everyone’s cup of tea
but even if you don’t agree with me
you must needs be civil.

most days I can handle it
when people aren’t

today however?
not so much

my feels good
got stomped on but good today
and as much as most of the people involved
say it’s not me
and I don’t have to own it

I tried really really hard
to not have this happen

and still it did.

I’d rather just not do it anymore.

I’m weary
tired of everything being so hard
tired of trying so hard
tired of the backlash
tired of never coming out on top
just
plain
weary.