I sit and look
at the wonder
of these monstrous cedars
and the horses, alpacas and chickens
and I am both calmed
and rejuvenated
somehow
being at the farm
always makes me contemplative
so I’ve just reread my post
from this day last December…
I’ve been contemplating the changes
in my life in the past year
work, health, lifestyle
2011 held some
big big changes for me
my daughter died in 2011
which precipitated
for me
and my family
a kind of reckoning
and conversation
never before been held
in our family
I started a new job in July
that I hope will lead to
ongoing calm, respectful professional work
as long as I can work that is…
the peepers are better
I know my heart is not affected by
the stress levels on my last job
although for a while we thought it was
I know that my Crohn’s is more active
than it’s been in years
I’m learning to balance the diabetes
I’m currently dealing with new ailments
and struggling to figure out
what the next test will be…
I’m hoping that it’s positive
like maybe a ride on the Pickle in the spring!
today I’ve been reading a lot
of people’s thoughts
for the end of this year
and the beginning of the next
so for
by a landslide
my favorite
for the last day of 2011
is:
“A very happy Old Year’s Day to all.
Rejoice in all the good
of the past year
and forgive any bad.
Tomorrow we start anew.”
I’m both calm and inquisitive
as to what 2012 will bring
Moving in to a new year
used to mean a frenzy of preparation
to allow me to meet resolutions
Now it means an understanding
that I continue to be
a work in progress
I predict that 2012
will be a year
of “balance”
world wide
Financially,
socially,
personally,
kosmically….
and so…resolutions?
they are always the same:
“I resolve to continue
to learn how to love myself
I resolve to continue
to learn how to be kind
I resolve to both accept
and give charity
I resolve to love
and be loved
I resolve to respect
and be respected
I resolve to have faith
and to be faithful
I resolve to hope
and be hopeful
I resolve to find the goddess and god
in all that I can
and I promise to forgive myself
when I slip”
I wish all of us
a Happy Healthy New Year.
For we are Brightly Blessed…
