this is what I know…

what you did to me
was cruel
and unconscionable

it was purposefully mean…

and the epitome
of the opposite
of everything
you profess
to dislike
about the world

you who pride yourself
on your communication skills

you who tout your caring and compassion
like armor
and make demands of everyone else
to do the same

you who has spent thousands of hours
and thousands of dollars
to educate yourself
in an attempt to make yourself
better, good enough, accepted, loved.

you.did.this.

well here’s a surprise
for you

I forgive you

I was sick
and I was tired
and I was afraid

you knew me well enough
to land on the things
I both feared and loved
the most
and as a result
I let those things
govern me
I let those fears
hold me hostage
and in turn got sicker

in the end
you did me a favor
you gave me a new beginning
and no matter what happens
I know
I am better away from you

I eventually realized
that I am
both loved and lovable

I learned so very much
from you…

much about what I do want
and what I don’t want
to be
as a human being

I appreciate that for
what it is

I’m better now
and I’m moving on

now please

forgive yourself
and do the same.