can’t live with them
can’t shoot them with the gun
for the season
of family turmoil
mine was in full swing
3 weeks before xmas
I told my fadder
my bother and the VOD
that I was taking an extra week
before xmas
at that time
I strongly suggested
that the 2 members of our family
that like to hold family dinners
(the bother and the cuz)
should have a convo
so that we weren’t playing it by ear
turns out in spite of
about 30 convo’s on the subject
we still ended up
playing it by ear
and as a result..
part of the family
wasn’t included
cos we’d waited too long
and they’d made plans
that sux
still
as ya’ll know
I made the best of it
and moved into
2011
and it took them 14 days
to finally burst my bubble
2 days ago
my bother
outta the blue
calls to say
that he’s worried about his eldest
I tried to call/text the kid
but he never responds
so
yesterday
the bother drives down here
with a care package
to check on him
while he’s driving down
he texts me to say
he’s on his way
and he’ll call me
when he can
to work out a visit
so I wait
no call
I assume
the kid was ok
and that he headed home
you can imagine my surprise
when he shows up at my work today
sheepish
and hung over
cos he…and his son
and my cousins tied one on
and didn’t bother to call me
so he’s all apologies
about our wires getting crossed
and avows how he’s gotta work
on his kid’s car
(you may remember that car
it’s the one I used to drive
that belongs to the VOD
that I had to give up
and go into debt buying
my own car so the VOD
could swoop in and save my
bother a buck er two
*sigh*)
anyway…
he allows how we’ll get together
at the cousin’s
and do something for supper
I finish my day
the tail end
of a hellish kinda work week
and go the the cousin’s house
and low and behold
they’ve gone away for the weekend
so I text the bother
“where are u?”
no answer
I text the son
“where are you?”
no answer
I text the cousin
“where are you”
and she answers…
“following your brother
up Island”
I go “HuH?
he’s supposed to meet me for dinner”
she goes..
“gonna be kinda hard…
he’s 2 hrs up the Island
and headed north”
I don’t know why
this kind of shit
continues to hurt my feelings
but it does.
it’s like
everyone in the free world
is more important than me
that makes me feel less then
which in turn
makes me feel like a boob
for being childish.
so now they’re
all apologeitc
and texting me
to come up Island too
but I’m not in the mood now
not cos I’m having a suck fit
but cos I’m really tired
and prolly shouldn’t be driving
3 or 4 hours
all things considered.
