if I was

if I was more organized
I’d knit or crochet more

if I was more understanding
my family wouldn’t have the ability
to make me “starkers” at whim

if I was more confident
I wouldn’t doubt myself so much

if I was younger
I’d likely want a partner

if I was just a little less confused
more people would understand me

if I was just a little less outspoken
I wouldn’t find myself in this mess

if I was kinder
more people would be kind to me

if I was less than I am today
I would not have developed the
caliber of friends I do have

may I should stop with the
if I was?