the fadder

is in town

and staying with

the cuz n family

I stopped by there

for about 15 min

after work yesterday

but I was so beat

I couldn’t stay

anyway…in that 15 min

the fadder told me twice

that he really loved being

at the cuz’s house

that he felt both

wanted and needed there

and that it was really nice

to feel needed as opposed

to being invisible

or detested

the way the bother’s new

girlfriend treats him

he just seemed so

sad and lost

my face leaked for him

alla way home

imagine being 76 yrs old

having just ended a 10 yr

relationship

whereby he got fucked

right up the yak

by said ex

to move into a travel trailer

in the bother’s yard

and to be treated like a pariah?

just the very fact that

he’s her boyfriend’s fadder

ought to garner him

some respect

or the fact that he’s 76 yrs old

but no

sometimes it makes me

fightin mad

and sometimes it makes

me so god damn sad

all I can do is weep

I just don’t get people

I just don’t.