I couldn’t give a shit!

I wonder why it is
that I just can’t seem
to give a shit
what my house looks like?

I mean
really?
I don’t care…

I’ve seen all my friends
hustle and bustle
around their homes
to make things nice
and I can’t seem to give a shit

I’d rather do nothing
than make pretty

is it cos I’ve been sick for so long?
that I know something has to give
so I just let the housework go
so I dont’ have to give up
other parts of my life?

or is that just my excuse?

could it be that I’m lazy?
that I just couldn’t give a shit

every night before
and as
I go to bed
my head is busy making lists
of all the stuff I need to do
tomorrow
clean the soap skum
offa the bathroom walls
plug in the dishwasher
wash the trike
vaccuum the livingroom
dust every little thang….

and every morning
I get up
and say to myself
“what was it
that was sooooo damn important
that I couldnt’ get to sleep last night?”

and every single morning
I shrug….
and move on into my day

cos I couldn’t give a shit!