{"id":998,"date":"2005-03-28T18:47:00","date_gmt":"2005-03-29T02:47:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=998"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:31:17","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:31:17","slug":"girlfriends-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=998","title":{"rendered":"Girlfriends"},"content":{"rendered":"

I think I am less of a “human” being than I thought I was<\/span>
<\/span>
I am envious of my 12 year old niece<\/span>
I am envious of her youth and beauty<\/span>
and I covet her friendship with her best friend Leanne.<\/span>
I am less <\/span>
because I am jealous…<\/span>
<\/span>
Last night, when it came time <\/span>
to drive home from the cousin’s house <\/span>
after the Easter gluttony<\/span>
<\/span>
I asked Jenna where the keys were<\/span>
she’d come to get them earlier <\/span>
to get something out of the van<\/span>
<\/span>
she couldn’t remember…<\/span>
and immediately burst into tears…<\/span>
because she thought we would all be angry<\/span>
mostly I just wanted to get home<\/span>
cos as I’ve mentioned previously…<\/span>
“ah hab a toad id by dose”<\/span>
<\/span>
a kaffuffle ensued and eventually we discovered the keys in the backseat of the van <\/span>
and the doors weren’t locked <\/span>
so it was all good<\/span>
and we headed out<\/span>
I drove<\/span>
<\/span>
my brother <\/span>
who did his level best <\/span>
to imbibe 3 jugs o wine over dinner <\/span>
sat in the passenger seat singing<\/span>
my nephew sat behind him <\/span>
and the girls in the rear<\/span>
<\/span>
throughout the whole 35 minute drive Jenna sobbed quietly<\/span>
heart brokenly…<\/span>
<\/span>
I looked in the rear view mirror and saw Jenna <\/span>
with her head on her friend Leanne’s shoulder <\/span>
Leanne consoling her, <\/span>
mothering her<\/span>
by petting her head and making tsk tsk sounds<\/span>
<\/span>
First off…<\/span>
it looks odd <\/span>
because altho Jenna is 12 she’s almost 6 feet tall, <\/span>
and Leanne, who is 6 mths older than Jenna is a good 2 ft shorter<\/span>
<\/span>
people continually think Leanne is a youngster until she speaks<\/span>
she’s quite refined and articulate<\/span>
<\/span>
I sometimes think that like twins separated at birth<\/span>
these two young girls speak a language <\/span>
and understand each other in ways we cannot comprehend.<\/span>
<\/span>
anyway<\/span>
so I’m driving down the highway in the dark <\/span>
peering altruistically into the rear view mirror at the girls<\/span>
and I’m thinking<\/span>
I wonder if Jenna truly knows <\/span>
how lucky she is to have a friend like Leanne?<\/span>
<\/span>
when I was a kid <\/span>
we were never stationed in a place <\/span>
long enough to let my guard down<\/span>
until it was too late<\/span>
<\/span>
until I was old enough <\/span>
that I had built up the walls <\/span>
that kept people out <\/span>
for so many years<\/span>
<\/span>
Jim and Kelly grew up with kids<\/span>
and developed life long friendships<\/span>
like the one that Jenna and Leanne have<\/span>
but I didn’t<\/span>
<\/span>
and altho as a 50 year old<\/span>
I have developed good “friend making” skills<\/span>
and have several “sister friends”<\/span>
<\/span>
I don’t have anyone <\/span>
who’s shoulder <\/span>
I would care to place my head<\/span>
when my heart is broken<\/span>
<\/span>
maybe it’s not so much <\/span>
that I wouldn’t care to<\/span>
but that I still don’t trust enough<\/span>
<\/span>
that most of the walls<\/span>
have come down<\/span><\/p>\n

but I’m not willing <\/span>
or unable<\/span>
to lower them all<\/span>
<\/span>
I think I am less of a “human” being than I thought I was<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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