{"id":845,"date":"2009-06-26T15:26:00","date_gmt":"2009-06-26T15:26:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=845"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:25:06","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:25:06","slug":"little-epiphanies","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=845","title":{"rendered":"little epiphanies"},"content":{"rendered":"

seems I’ve been doing it again<\/p>\n

seems that I’ve been allowing
my passion
my pleasure
my faith
and my perspective<\/p>\n

to come from without
instead of from within<\/p>\n

all my life I’ve known
that my greatest struggles come
when I stop listening
to my own voice
and start listening
to others<\/p>\n

not arrogance,
conviction.<\/p>\n

not audacity,
faith<\/p>\n

not ego
belief<\/p>\n

not conceit,
passion<\/p>\n

the richness
and vastness
of my caring
and faith
in humanity
in the big picture
gets caught up
in the minutiae<\/span><\/span>
of the inevitable
negativity and strife
that comes
from without<\/p>\n

I keep getting
these great
huge examples<\/p>\n

like spending 4 or 5 years
doing what others think\/say I should
for the good of the all
and my position
in the pack<\/p>\n

my disappointment
at the hasty red neck
judgments
of a few I’d come to meet
that profess to have
a commonality
with me…<\/p>\n

my feelings of loss
around the concept
of career
and greater good<\/p>\n

once again
I am faced with
a waking
of self
and an understanding
that no one
or nothing
is responsible
for my hopes
or dreams
my faith
or beliefs<\/p>\n

and I can go about my day
with heart
and understanding<\/p>\n

and a decidedly
christian thought
for a non christian:<\/p>\n

“forgive them, for they know not what they do”<\/p>\n

go figure.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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