I have this urge
\nnot a wish
\nalmost a need<\/p>\n\n\n\n
to get dressed up
\nand do something
\ngo somewhere\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a meeting?
\n(I dislike meetings)
\nan appointment?
\nI don’t know\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s my own version
\nof shack wacky
\nI guess\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the fog is clearing<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I’ve started
\nchewing my nails? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can’t get to sleep
\nand I really feel
\nlike I should be\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
there are statistics
around people
who have been through
what I have
in the past week
losing the ability
to sleep at night
cos they are afraid
of dying<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t want
\nto die
\nbut I’m not afraid<\/p>\n\n\n\n
it is
\nwhat
\nit is<\/p>\n\n\n\n
does that make me
\nmore than
\nshack wacky?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I hope not
\ncos
\nI got me some plans<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I have this urge not a wish almost a need to get dressed up and do something go somewhere\u2026 a meeting? (I dislike meetings) an appointment? I don’t know\u2026 It’s my own version of shack wacky I guess\u2026 the fog … Continue reading