there is something to be said
\nfor consciously
\nmaking the decision
\nto stop
\nliving in fear<\/p>\n
when I left my last job
\nat the other U
\nit was under duress<\/p>\n
I honestly thought
\nthat I was taking
\nall that falsehood
\nshit and lies
\nbecause
\nI would not survive
\nwithout that job<\/p>\n
well here I am
\nwell over a year later
\nand I have a job
\nalbeit not permanent
\nhowever in a great office
\nand they’ve offered me
\nanother year contract<\/p>\n
and I’ve also applied
\nfor a permanent job
\nelsewhere
\nat the new place
\nthat some say
\nwas designed for me
\nso we’ll see…<\/p>\n
then there’s
\nfinally coming
\nto the understanding
\nthat this apartment
\nthat has been my home
\nfor 14 or 15 years
\nis in fact toxic
\nto me<\/p>\n
so I started the search
\nand found a new place
\nmore costly
\nhowever
\nmuch more space
\nand mostly
\nwhat I was looking for
\nwhen I first moved out here
\nit actually seems serene…<\/p>\n
yesterday I went
\nto the car dealership
\nto have some much needed
\nservice work done<\/p>\n
about $700.00 worth
\nand ended up
\nnot paying for the service
\nand driving out
\nwith a brand new car
\nwondering
\nhow the hell did this happen?<\/p>\n
all this combined
\nwith my systematic
\nremoval
\nof every single
\ntoxic person
\nin my life<\/p>\n
has left me changed<\/p>\n
and all this
\nthis
\naccompanied by
\nanother conscious decision
\nto include
\nthe people here
\nand around the world
\nthat both interest
\nand excite me
\nwith their
\nkindness, peace,love
\nand joie de vive
\nlets me love and learn
\nfrom some very cool
\npeople!<\/p>\n
all of this
\nhas of course
\naffected my health
\nin a very positive manner
\nagain
\nnothing permanent
\nbut the veil of darkness
\nI operated under
\nfor many years
\nseems to have lifted<\/p>\n
things have changed so
\npositively and
\nso dramatically
\nin my life
\nthat I hardly need to
\nvent in here
\nand I wonder
\nif my documenting
\nthe positive
\nin my life
\nwill become boring<\/p>\n
can I?
\nwill I?
\nlearn to write
\nabout other things now?<\/p>\n
or will this fall to the
\nwayside of my new life?<\/p>\n
I hope I can
\nand I hope that the people
\nthat follow this
\ncome along for the ride<\/p>\n
I can honestly say
\nI’ll try not to gloat
\nbut damn!
\nlife is so good<\/p>\n
I just pray
\nthat it continues.<\/p>\n
Happy Mother’s Day
\nto all the mothers in the world<\/p>\n
Mother’s Day
\nhas a different meaning
\nfor me now
\nthan previously
\nthose of you
\nthat read here know why…<\/p>\n
there’s a touch of sadness
\njust a touch
\nas I look forward
\nto the new
\nand improved
\nWyzWmn!<\/p>\n
Bright Blessings!
\nand at the risk
\nof sounding suspiciously like
\nthe 70’s version
\nof myself<\/p>\n
I wish you all…Peace, Love, Joy and Health<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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