I can’t stop thinkin
\nabout Peter<\/p>\n
how does one
\ncontinue to live their lives
\nafter loosing
\ntheir soulmate?<\/p>\n
wtf is fair about that?
\nI ask myself
\nover and over…<\/p>\n
what’s fair about
\ngoing for so many years
\nof your life
\nnot feeling whole
\nand just when you get shit
\nworked out
\nit’s taken away from you
\nin some weird kind of
\nkarmic\/kosmic slam?<\/p>\n
you all know
\nthat I believe
\nin the weave
\nand it’s defining
\nthe length of time
\nand conditions
\nin which we live…<\/p>\n
I have to wonder though
\nwhen the weave
\nlooks so blatantly unfair…<\/p>\n
and then
\nthere’s this huge
\ndisappointment in my life
\nin not being able to
\njoin my brothers and sisters wise
\nin Colorado<\/p>\n
not only
\nto miss the Gathering
\nof the Tribe
\nbut for patching\/vesting too…
\nI was sooo looking forward
\nto fully belonging<\/p>\n
so I wait longer
\nit’s not hard
\nit’s just
\ndisappointing
\non a rather large
\nsad scale
\nand the culmination
\nof a bunch of
\nkosmic slaps
\nso far this year<\/p>\n
first the illness
\nthen the job loss
\nthen more illness
\nthen my aunt’s death
\nthen rachel’s death
\nmy friend’s death
\nand now Colorado<\/p>\n
wtf is fair
\nabout any of that?<\/p>\n
oh
\nI know
\nthat I should
\nthank my lucky stars
\nthat I found a good job
\nin such a timely manner…<\/p>\n
and don’t get me wrong
\nI am eternally grateful
\nto be able to support
\nmy never ending habit
\nof medical needs LoL<\/p>\n
but shysta!
\nI’d been planing this trip
\nfor a frelling year!
\nand coulda really
\nused a real
\ntribe “hug”
\nat the moment…<\/p>\n
*sigh*<\/p>\n
I know I talk continually
\nabout being a work in progress
\nand I acknowledge it
\nevery single day of my adult life<\/p>\n
seriously though?
\nthe fact that my job
\nwas lost
\nin the manner it was
\nwill forever
\nbe a disappointment to me<\/p>\n
I’ve forgiven the perpetrator
\ncos that’s what
\nI needed to do for me<\/p>\n
again with the seriously…
\ntout kindness compassion and love
\nand then screw over someone
\nyou profess to care about<\/p>\n
KaLassie!<\/p>\n
so the disappointment
\nI’m feeling
\nhas caused me to ponder
\nthe evolution
\nof the themes
\nin my life<\/p>\n
I do!<\/p>\n
I see these same themes
\nin my life
\nall the time<\/p>\n
they continue
\nto remind me
\nof the path I travel<\/p>\n
I remain in search
\nof
\nWisdom
\nStrength
\nand
\nHonour<\/p>\n
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