just when I figure I might be getting back to normal (whatever the hell that is) I go to the Crohn’s specialist thinking that there’s nothing wrong<\/p>\n
not so much<\/p>\n
I’m now on a cancer drug as an immunosuppresent
\nand I have to have\u00a0 blood work once a week for 4 weeks
\nthen twice weekly for 2 weeks
\nthen monthly likely for the rest of my\u00a0 life
\nand the drug may or may not cause acute pancreatitis and\/or liver damage (drug induced hepatitis)and\/or spongy tumors (cancer)<\/p>\n
I told her I feel better Crohn\u2019s wise than I have in 30 years
\nshe says “but you are not…and I want to start on an anti depression drug because this is what stress has done to you”
\nwhich is when I told her about the cipralex I\u2019m already on as I’d forgotten to mention it and that would have been the drug that she prescribed<\/p>\n
I could just cry\u2026I\u2019m tired of being stoic\u2026just accepting everything as my lot and moving on\u2026<\/p>\n
so
\nmy Crohns is now not just in the lower bowel on the left side
\nit’s all the way through my small intestine too\u2026and fully engaged – my bowel has started to thicken and constrict which means that it is very likely only a matter of time before I’ll have to have a chunk cut out…
\nshe also talked about CPP medical pensions for depression \u2013 and I said that I\u2019d rather work so I can feel like I\u2019m contributing to which she said good\u2026but you can\u2019t be governed by stress anymore – so if your next job is as stressful as the last…you are outta there!<\/p>\n
and she wants me to go back to not eating so many fruits and veg\u2026no oranges, grapefruit, lemons or limes, apples, seeds, nuts, bean sprouts, tomatoes, celery, cucumbers, corn, white bread, wild rice, peppers, pickles, relished, popcorn, jams, marmalade, nothing processed\u2026.<\/p>\n
and just wtf will happen if I don’t have a new job by Aug? a new job with benefits?<\/p>\n
Shoot me now\u2026.cos there\u2019s no stress in that eh?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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