{"id":1828,"date":"2009-06-15T23:19:00","date_gmt":"2009-06-16T06:19:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=1828"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:25:06","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:25:06","slug":"lifes-too-short-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=1828","title":{"rendered":"Life’s too short"},"content":{"rendered":"

with all the going’s on <\/span>
over the past year<\/span><\/p>\n

and the incredibly cruddy<\/span>
response my body has had<\/span>
to stress<\/span><\/p>\n

I’ve come to understand<\/span>
that life is really too short<\/span>
to carry on with grudges.<\/span><\/p>\n

I’ve had not one but a couple<\/span>
of very hard health smacks <\/span>
in the last year<\/span>
one of which I had a genetic<\/span>
predisposition to but is <\/span>
exacerbated by stress<\/span><\/p>\n

and the most recent<\/span>
the result of a childhood virus<\/span>
that lays dormant in your body<\/span>
until your stress levels get to the point<\/span>
where your body says<\/span>
“I don’t think so”<\/span>
and all hell breaks loose<\/span><\/p>\n

which of course<\/span>
exacerbates all the other illness’<\/span>
that compromise my immunity<\/span><\/p>\n

I honestly thought <\/span>
that I’d got to the point<\/span>
where I was dealing with the losses<\/span>
in my life<\/span>
but<\/span>
apparently I was only fooling myself<\/span><\/p>\n

I’ve been shocked and saddened<\/span>
by some people that I know<\/span>
over the last year or so<\/span><\/p>\n

and I’ve been reminded<\/span>
again and again<\/span>
that my priorities <\/span>
are not necessarily <\/span>
those of others<\/span><\/p>\n

I’m not a christian<\/span>
so I don’t have the same kind of <\/span>
relationship with forgiveness<\/span>
that christians do<\/span><\/p>\n

but what I do have <\/span>
is a faith in humanity<\/span>
to eventually come round<\/span>
to seeing<\/span>
the good<\/span>
and striving for it.<\/span><\/p>\n

I truly miss <\/span>
some of the relationships <\/span>
I’ve lost over the past year<\/span>
and that makes me sad too<\/span><\/p>\n

I now wonder if it’s that I’ve lost friends<\/span>
or if they ever were to begin with?
when I see pictures of them now
and I am struck dumb
with sadness
and understand….
what a waste.
<\/span>
This I’ve also come to understand….<\/span><\/p>\n

life’s too short<\/span>
and I need to find a way<\/span>
to get back to living<\/span>
as opposed to this <\/span>
shell I’ve become<\/p>\n

I said this to a friend yesterday
“having the courage<\/span>
to stand by your convictions<\/span>
doesn’t make you popular…<\/span>
it simply makes you<\/span>
able to face yourself in the mirror<\/span>.”
<\/span>
have I reached a crossroads?
and discovered that it’s time
to make some life changing decisions?<\/p>\n

I wish….<\/p>\n

I just wish I didn’t
that’s all.<\/p>\n

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