{"id":1801,"date":"2009-04-18T11:28:00","date_gmt":"2009-04-18T18:28:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=1801"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:25:28","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:25:28","slug":"shame-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=1801","title":{"rendered":"Shame"},"content":{"rendered":"

you are lying<\/span><\/p>\n

I know it<\/span>
and you know it<\/span><\/p>\n

you can kick and scream<\/span>
and call foul to anyone who’ll listen<\/span>
till the cows come home<\/span>
that won’t make you less of a liar<\/span><\/p>\n

you lied to me about her on Sat night<\/span>
and you lied to me about him as well<\/span>
(guess you didn’t know that he already<\/span>
knew where the new house was did you?)<\/span><\/p>\n

you lied on Sat night<\/span><\/p>\n

and when you got called on it…<\/span>
you lied on the board as well<\/span><\/p>\n

just like you lied to me about what<\/span>
someone else said a month ago<\/span><\/p>\n

you won’t\/don’t talk to me about it<\/span>
but you certainly don’t have a problem<\/span>
telling anyone else that will listen<\/span>
(and they call me a drama queen – pfffft!)<\/span><\/p>\n

I am ashamed of you.<\/span><\/p>\n

You’ve hurt people<\/span>
that always knew what you were up to<\/span>
and while they didn’t necessarily understand<\/span>
they didn’t walk away…<\/span><\/p>\n

see…the thing is <\/span>
that I think you’ve been lying for so long<\/span>
you don’t even realize you are doing it anymore<\/span><\/p>\n

more’s the pity<\/span><\/p>\n

I don’t want to think that of you<\/span>
but you sure are making it hard.<\/span><\/p>\n

I think it started because you were so desperate to belong<\/span>
and now you don’t know how to live in truth<\/span><\/p>\n

I believe in my heart of hearts that you are so desperate to find love<\/span>
you are going about it all the wrong way<\/span><\/p>\n

I have to believe that <\/span>
cos to believe otherwise<\/span>
would mean that you continue to do this shit <\/span>
from a place of maliciousness <\/span>
and that would mean you are truly bad at your core<\/span>
I don’t want to believe that…<\/span><\/p>\n

I think you are so scared of living without love<\/span>
you can’t be yourself<\/span>
even to yourself…<\/span><\/p>\n

course…I’m a trouble maker<\/span>
and a drama queen…right?<\/span><\/p>\n

here’s the truth<\/span>
I’m not blaming<\/span>
I know this<\/span>
cos I used to be you<\/span><\/p>\n

and because of that one fact<\/span>
I also know that you can’t fix the past<\/span>
but you can strive for a better future.<\/span><\/p>\n

but you have to want to…<\/span><\/p>\n

there’s the key<\/span>
YOU<\/span> have to want to.<\/p>\n

I really hope that someday you find peace
<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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