{"id":1722,"date":"2008-11-07T01:06:00","date_gmt":"2008-11-07T09:06:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=1722"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:26:47","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:26:47","slug":"round-and-round-in-circles%e2%80%a6-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=1722","title":{"rendered":"round and round in circles\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-weight: bold; color: rgb(192, 192, 192);font-size:130%;\" >head\u2019s whirring\u2026<br \/>who to trust\u2026?<br \/>who to believe\u2026?<br \/>how much more?<br \/>will it ever stop?<\/p>\n<p>here\u2019s another night<br \/>of lost sleep<br \/>some backstabbing chit<br \/>has cost me<\/p>\n<p>what would ever have possessed me<br \/>to think that I could lead a normal life?<\/p>\n<p>time and again<br \/>I try<br \/>and<br \/>I fail<br \/>and pick myself up<br \/>to start over again<\/p>\n<p>and time and time again<br \/>I make it so far<br \/>and then get cut<br \/>off at the knees<br \/>for trusting someone<br \/>less than trustworthy<\/p>\n<p>for putting my faith<br \/>in the unworthy<\/p>\n<p>why is it not more apparent to me<br \/>out of the gate?<\/p>\n<p>why can I not see the facts before me?<\/p>\n<p>what is it that makes me think<br \/>that this one time<br \/>I\u2019ll have placed my trust<br \/>correctly?<\/p>\n<p>apparently<br \/>I am less sane than I thought<\/p>\n<p>in my struggles<br \/>to be true to myself<br \/>I seem to have lost the ability<br \/>to see people for what they really are<\/p>\n<p>world weary<br \/>sad<br \/>disappointed<br \/>and<br \/>disappointing<br \/>bereft of truth<br \/>and<br \/>honour<\/p>\n<p>but who?<br \/>them?<br \/>or me?<\/p>\n<p>am I more disappointed<br \/>in the liar?<\/p>\n<p>or myself for having<br \/>yet once again<br \/>set myself up for failure?<\/p>\n<p>round and round in circles&#8230;.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>head\u2019s whirring\u2026who to trust\u2026?who to believe\u2026?how much more?will it ever stop? here\u2019s another nightof lost sleepsome backstabbing chithas cost me what would ever have possessed meto think that I could lead a normal life? time and againI tryandI failand pick &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=1722\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1722","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1722"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4436,"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1722\/revisions\/4436"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1722"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1722"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1722"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}