{"id":1213,"date":"2006-09-04T07:38:00","date_gmt":"2006-09-04T14:38:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=1213"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:29:40","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:29:40","slug":"nightmares-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=1213","title":{"rendered":"nightmares"},"content":{"rendered":"

woke up this morning <\/span>
crying again<\/span>
<\/span>
yet another<\/span>
nightmare about <\/span>
my sister<\/span>
<\/span>
after all these years<\/span>
of telling myself<\/span>
it’s her loss<\/span>
<\/span>
in my little heart<\/span>
the one I don’t share<\/span>
I know the fear of <\/span>
having a sister<\/span>
that won’t or can’t<\/span>
be my sister<\/span>
<\/span>
in my little heart <\/span>
I ask myself time and again<\/span>
how is it…<\/span>
that all these other people love me<\/span>
and my own flesh and blood sister<\/span>
can’t or won’t?<\/span>
<\/span>
and then<\/span>
when morning comes<\/span>
it lessens….<\/span>
it doesn’t go away<\/span>
but at least I stop crying<\/span>
<\/span>
~~~~~<\/span><\/p>\n

and speaking of fear<\/span>
if you are reading this<\/span>
and you used to be on my email lists<\/span>
you need to resend me your email addy<\/span>
cos with the loss of my harddrive<\/span>
I lost all of you<\/span>
and it’s made me fearful of never <\/span>
being in contact with you again<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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