{"id":1026,"date":"2005-04-24T17:49:00","date_gmt":"2005-04-25T00:49:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beltdrivebetty.com\/wyzwmnsworld\/?p=1026"},"modified":"2010-09-29T18:31:05","modified_gmt":"2010-09-30T01:31:05","slug":"sunshine-and-sadness-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wyzwmn9444.live-website.com\/?p=1026","title":{"rendered":"Sunshine and Sadness…"},"content":{"rendered":"

today I went for an 8 hr ride with my club<\/span><\/p>\n

the sun was shining and I was thinking that <\/span>
life’s pretty good inspite of it all<\/span>
<\/span>
when we stop for lunch<\/span>
one of the young guys makes a crack about <\/span>
how I prolly can’t reach my toes<\/span>
cos I’m so “obese”<\/span>
<\/span>
I wanted to get in his face <\/span>
and scream at him…<\/span>
“do you think I chose to look like this?<\/span>
do you think if I had a choice <\/span>
I’d choose to not ever be able to buy offa the rack?<\/span>
do you think I like not fittin in airplane seats?<\/span>
do you think I choose to huff n puff tieing up my shoes?<\/span>
do you think I like<\/em> this<\/strong>?<\/span><\/p>\n

this body that men and women both once longed for?<\/span>
do you think that I like<\/em> this<\/strong>?<\/span>
or…<\/span>
do you think at all?”<\/span>
<\/span>
people just don’t get it<\/span>
they think I’m this big cos I’m lazy<\/span>
they have no idea the hours I spend yearning <\/span>
for long walks <\/span>
and eating fruit and veg<\/span>
the hours spent planning for “when I’m well”<\/span>
the things I have to give up to be able to go on rides <\/span>
one fucking day a week<\/span>
<\/span>
fuck’em<\/span>
fuck’em all<\/span>
<\/span>
then I get home and find a message <\/span>
to call the Voice of Doom<\/span>
<\/span>
“Sam’s dead” she says<\/span>
<\/span>
she’s hurting bad<\/span>
(and the champagne likely ain’t helping)<\/span>
Jim’s a mess<\/span>
Kelly’s a mess<\/span>
even Digger is sad<\/span>
<\/span>
Sam played a big role in our lives<\/span>
if he hadn’t have believed in Do<\/span>
when she and Digger split up <\/span>
there’d never have been a sales agency<\/span>
and Jim and I likely would be flippin burgers to this day<\/span>
<\/span>
(my little voice says)<\/span>
but you didn’t even like him <\/span>
he was a racist, sexist pig<\/span>
ya <\/span>
he was<\/span>
but he loved my family<\/span>
and I guess<\/span>
that says it all<\/span>
<\/span>
So here’s one for Sam<\/span>
who said <\/span>
“no fuckin service and NO fuckin flowers”<\/span>
<\/span>
here’s one for Sam<\/span>
who knew he was dieing <\/span>
so he walked out the front door of the hospital <\/span>
and got on a city bus<\/span>
rode it home<\/span>
and died in his own bed<\/span>
an hour later
<\/span>
props to the man who lived his life <\/span>
his own way…<\/span>
<\/span>
by all the gods<\/span>
he was loved.<\/span>
<\/span>
RIP <\/span>
Sam Suche<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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