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there is something to be said
for consciously
making the decision
to stop
living in fear

when I left my last job
at the other U
it was under duress

I honestly thought
that I was taking
all that falsehood
shit and lies
because
I would not survive
without that job

well here I am
well over a year later
and I have a job
albeit not permanent
however in a great office
and they’ve offered me
another year contract

and I’ve also applied
for a permanent job
elsewhere
at the new place
that some say
was designed for me
so we’ll see…

then there’s
finally coming
to the understanding
that this apartment
that has been my home
for 14 or 15 years
is in fact toxic
to me

so I started the search
and found a new place
more costly
however
much more space
and mostly
what I was looking for
when I first moved out here
it actually seems serene…

yesterday I went
to the car dealership
to have some much needed
service work done

about $700.00 worth
and ended up
not paying for the service
and driving out
with a brand new car
wondering
how the hell did this happen?

all this combined
with my systematic
removal
of every single
toxic person
in my life

has left me changed

and all this
this
accompanied by
another conscious decision
to include
the people here
and around the world
that both interest
and excite me
with their
kindness, peace,love
and joie de vive
lets me love and learn
from some very cool
people!

all of this
has of course
affected my health
in a very positive manner
again
nothing permanent
but the veil of darkness
I operated under
for many years
seems to have lifted

things have changed so
positively and
so dramatically
in my life
that I hardly need to
vent in here
and I wonder
if my documenting
the positive
in my life
will become boring

can I?
will I?
learn to write
about other things now?

or will this fall to the
wayside of my new life?

I hope I can
and I hope that the people
that follow this
come along for the ride

I can honestly say
I’ll try not to gloat
but damn!
life is so good

I just pray
that it continues.

Happy Mother’s Day
to all the mothers in the world

Mother’s Day
has a different meaning
for me now
than previously
those of you
that read here know why…

there’s a touch of sadness
just a touch
as I look forward
to the new
and improved
WyzWmn!

Bright Blessings!
and at the risk
of sounding suspiciously like
the 70’s version
of myself

I wish you all…Peace, Love, Joy and Health

I find
that for the first time in my life
I’m doing what I want

not what my partner wants
not what my parents want
not what my friends want
not what the bank wants

just what I want.

and while I still have
some quiet reservations…

I am kind of exhilarated

I’m being an adult
and making adult decisions
and if I spend all my money
and land flat on my ass
I have a fail safe

so
the union is fighting
the 2nd year extension
of my contract

and I’m not fussed

I simply applied for
other jobs
worth more money

cuz hey?
I’m damn near 57
it’s time
all that work experience
paid off eh?

I bought plants and pots
for my office

I rented an apartment
that’s substantially more costly
than this one

and is the kind of place
I’ve wanted to live in since
I moved to BC
14 + years ago

I bought a china cabinet
and a chair for my verandah

all those things
I’ve been denying myself
for so long

I’m doing so
with the absolute belief
that it will work out
that the cosmos
will see to it
that something
positive
will
happen
and life
will remain
good

cuz for now?

Life is damn good!