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I’ve been thinking about how giddy I’ve been lately

sometimes I think it’s cos I’m nuts.
at least…
that’s what I’m telling others…

but I know

it’s glee
it’s good humor
it’s happiness

cos
ya can’t have been sick as long as I have
and then get to the point where you can leave home
once and as while
and not get gleefully

truly
after being sick for somewhere between 20 and 30 years
(the courts still out on when it actually started)
getting to a point in my life
were I can go off and play every now and then
its absolutely liberating!

it completely boggles my mind
when I think of the years I’ve spent
and the dollars I’ve spent on this disease

and for a long time
when I first started feeling better
I was afraid to believe…
but now I do

and I am eternally grateful

I am fully cognizant that it may not last
but I’m gonna enjoy what I’ve got
while I can

because I like me giddy!

remember the Duirwaigh!

I’ve walked these streets
a virtual stage
it seemed to me
make up on their faces
actors took their
places next to me

I’ve walked these streets
in a carnival
of sights to see
all the cheap thrill seekers
the vendors and the dealers
they crowded around me

have I been blind
have I been lost
inside my self and
my own mind
hypnotized
mesmerized by what my eyes have seen?

I’ve walked these streets
in a spectacle of wealth and poverty
in the diamond markets
the scarlet welcome carpet
that they just rolled out for me

I’ve walked these streets
in the mad house asylum
they can be
where a wild eyed misfit prophet
on a traffic island stopped
and he raved of saving me

have I been blind
have I been lost
inside my self and
my own mind
hypnotized
mesmerized
by what my eyes have seen?

have I been wrong
have I been wise
to shut my eyes
and play along
hypnotized
paralyzed
by what my eyes have found
by what my eyes have seen
what they have seen?

have I been blind
have I been lost
inside my self and
my own mind
hypnotized
mesmerized
by what my eyes have found
in that great street carnival
in that carnival?

~Natalie Merchant